Hope

haiz...stop giving me a hope...
aft that, u all grab my hope away again...
until jz nw, i still believe that i have a chance...
bt since last second...i knw im the silly one...
im the one who still keep on runaway frm the truth...

i always asking u nt to be negative, i always encouraging u...
bt nw, i dunno hw 2 face u... who should i blame on?
no one... other did nt promise u at all...
they keep on saying: see 1st...
so, i have no right to blame on ppl...

yes, u r right...jz reject if dunwan...
y muz giving other a hope then grab it again?
i knw ltr if u knw the truth, u will get mad o cry maybe...
so sry... i should nt bring u together wv me to step on this journey...

if that day i did nt mention abt this,
maybe, we would nt unhappy today...
really sry...haiz...never trust on other start frm nw...
n never depend on other start frm nw...

n i found that actually, in my home...
i have no right to be sad...haha...
mom, pls stand on others' foot...
nt everyone have the same feeling o problem...
i might have my own problem too...
jz dad is unhappy n facing problem?
me too... bt why? i cant be moody?
i jz dunwan 2 smile, is that a problem?
it so ridiculous huh?

as higher the hope is,
the deeper the disappointing is...

Real Man?

Can u believe ur eyes?
above r the picx for a model frm Thailand!
He is so handsome n cool, right?
and the fact is HE is a GIRL!

let shows some picxx...
i really cant imagine that...
he look like a real man!


jz sharing here... nothing i wanna to say o comment~
hahaha...bt i really admire on him...
he is so success...

what u have see ,it doesnt mean it...
what u have feel, it doesnt mean it...
what u have done,it doesnt mean it...
all can juz be proved by the time...

the Last Titanic

this morning,
i dunno y i have a sixsense,
i feel that my lecturer will let us watch Titanic,
the movie like Titanic i jz dare to watch once,
2day was my 2nd time...
haiz... maybe i was still young when the 1st time i watched it...
i dun und what actually happened n what it mean...
bt the memories still clear in my mind...

aft watching, i cried again...
i really dun like this kind of movie...
this is bcz of me will always put my foot on theirs...C when i saw this i thinked:
the tragedy was happening jz one day b4 my bday!
its really happened! the history!
n i promised t0do i still have the braveness to stay alive?
if my dad was left on the ship, hw could i carry on?
there are a lot of IF appear in my mind...

i believe that beside love,
there r still other msg that they want to convey...
its humanity i think...
actually what will a man do when he face the panic moment...
the great captain, Mr Andrew who felt guilty on his ship,
the musicians who still ply music together when the ship sunk...
at that moment, all the humanity came out...

it still a tragedy,Jack still cant go together wv his beloved...
maybe that is da fate?
If Jack did nt won the ticket, did nt go up to the ship, did nt meet wv Rose,
what would happen?
But at las, Jack did nt feel regret 2 meet up wv Rose,
he still protect his beloved until the last second...

The day when ship sunk, was perhaps on 14th of Apr o 15th of Apr,
n 16th of Apr is my bday, when i saw this i thinked:
the tragedy was happening jz one day b4 my bday!
its really happened! the history!
n i promised to myself n swear:
i wont watch Titanic for the 3rd time in the rest of my life....

PS: this blog was written in chinese actually,
bt it cant shown... so have to translet into eng...damn tired...

You jump, I jump...
im thankful...really thankful...
for winning the ship ticket to make me here n meet u up...
promise me, never let go... never give up...
Quoted frm Jack, Titanic

anti-想太多

今天突然收到了一个消息，
很有可能我和妹妹都没办法去KL实习了。。。
A.B.I009就只好呆在韩江过日子吧。。。
唉。。。我也不知道该用什么样的心情来面对？
该伤心好呢？还是怎样？
哭，难过也于事无补。。。

我必须要坚强一些，
我相信我自己是一个很幸运的人，
我把这个问题就只好丢给了上天，
上天要我去，我就去，
不要我去，我就留在槟城好了。。。

最近，是我想太多了还是怎样？
凡事想太多真的不太好，这只会让自己更难过。。。
为何什么事情都要怀疑，想那么多？
就比如一个电话，我就可以伤心一天。。。
哇，这是什么想法啊？
我真的不知道了。。。

我以前不是这样的，
最近真的人变得很负面。。。
我不喜欢这样的自己。。。
明明内心很难受，却还装得很开心，还能逗朋友笑，
明明很难过，还能去担心朋友的问题。。。
曾伊凌，你可以不要再想那么多了吗？
别人的问题就让他们自己去解决，
不需要那么好人，去理会他人的。。。

我究竟要变成怎样的一个人呢？
我自己都不了解自己了。。。

想太多就会开始怀疑，
怀疑就会开始伤心，
不是伤自己的心，还伤了别人的心。。。
停止怀疑，停止想太多。。。

Shut Up...

Last time i keep on encouraging my friends to move on,
but nw, i gv it up 1st...i dun really like the lifestyle nw...
i dun like sum ppl's irresponsible, i dun like...
bt what to do? they r nt me, i cant do anything to them...
i cant change them... so what to do?
make myself better so they have the chance to lazy again?
i dunno...well...dun misund, k?
"they" are sumone who nt be invited in this blog,
nt mean u all... so dun think too much...k?

well, after the whole day, i think i should make myself clear,
n take all the responsibility back...
i had nt been in klj for 2 days,
maybe there r a lots of things happened,
n still waiting me 2 solve,
o maybe i have make others unhappy,
by right... i appologize for it...
bt for those who jz knw hw to blame the others,
pls think back,
did u help us n give us a solution?
NO, u jz knw hw 2 blame n blame...
NON STOP blaming...
there is no point,k?
pls, pls dun hurt the teammate anymore...
we have well done all the stuff n try our best to settle it d...
im nt here to praise myself n ikumo hw great r we...
bt jz want to shout it out:
PLS! STOP BLAME ON US!
IF U CAN, DO UR OWN JOB!
STOP GIVING ME　EXCUSES!
GASTRIC! GO N CONSULT DOCTOR THEN!

if u may solve the problem, u may absent the class,
if u may help in the team, u have the right to blame,
if u may dedicate n contribute to the team, u can shout at me,
otherwise, SHUT UP ur mouth!

thx 4 reading...

for autumn, u help a lot in the group,
everyone have their own dedication...
be tough n confidence, u r nt a rubbish...

for sumone,think twice before u blame on others,
dun think that u r so great,
maybe, at others eyes, u r jz a jerk...
these sentences as well as dedicated to myself.

朋友的真相

朋友，到底是拿来干嘛的？我真的看不透，也猜不透了。。。
你们要在我面前继续带假面具做人，
说着我以后也许可以戳破的谎言，
那你们请继续吧。。。

纸是包不住火的，难道你们没有读过？
大家的朋友都互相认识对方，又何必这样偷偷摸摸，鬼鬼祟祟呢？
随便吧，我真的懒得理了。。。
对于你们，我只好当看戏那样看吧。。。

说真的，我这个人就是这样，
你不喜欢，不想，不要就说声，
真的不需要利用其他朋友，
来隐瞒你的内心。。。
也许你掩饰的很好，不过你却忘了人的嘴巴，
别人是会说的。。。真想知道了，
只会让你的形象全毁。。。

有些事，确实是不关我们的事，
但是你们却要利用我们，
把本来不属于我们的事，
也卷入了我们。。。
好知为之吧朋友。。。

life is like suck now...
when can i survive it like what i wish for?
everything is going to be weird...
i really dun und whats the meaning of it...
FRIENDS... LIFE...

我们的未来不是梦

假期了，整个假期都不知道自己在浑浑噩噩的过着什么样的日子？
人真的很矛盾，当在忙的时候，会一直在埋怨，
在懒散的过日子的时候，又害怕自己浪费光阴，
而我，就是这个矛盾的人。。。
究竟我以后的生活是怎样的呢？
忙碌？浑浑噩噩？忙里偷闲？写意？

有时候妈妈问我，
凌，等你读完韩江了，你能做些什么啊？
以前的我，肯定答道：去KL当DJ啊！
现在的我，又是很敷衍的回答过去：
什么都可以啊，电台DJ，广告公司，编剧导演，幕后工作人员。。。
也许就是出路太广了，导致我不清楚我能干些什么？
感觉自己好像什么都会，但又不全部会，半桶水。。。

最近，发现我最爱的并不是坐在电台里说话，
而是站在野外/荒废的停车场/厕所里
什么地方都好，当演员。。。
但是这要从何下手呢？
所以我不敢想，我没那资格，
还是好好的把握当下吧，
以后的问题就让以后再烦恼吧。。。
因为朋友告诉我一句话：
冬天离现在还远，而你已经开始担心冬天时候的痛苦，
那你的冬天不就变得更长了吗？

还记得以前中学，自己是最早做好决定毕业后要干什么的。。。
现在看来自己可能会成为一个毕业后就开始恍然过日子的人。。。
去台湾，我没钱，
读书嘛？肯定得去kl，但是可能还得重读。。。
做工嘛？做哪行好？
还是以后再决定吧。。。

所以，有时候，不是说我不要未雨绸缪。。。
而只是我不想杞人忧天，让自己太辛苦。。。

至一位和我也有类似烦恼的朋友和妹妹：
不要担心，你们不会是最后一个的，
所以，好好珍惜当下的每一刻，
没有什么是解决不了的，
最多继续一起去KL读书吧。。。
如果还真的做不了决定，
三人中，还有我会帮你们垫底，
加油吧！！！

Magic In The Moonlight

2day, i attended a party

its actually a gathering for mooncake festival...
at 1st, i dun like this event at all
i dun even have any expectation on it...
even i wan 2 leave the party be4 it start...
bt due to my sis, she nearly wanna get mad when knw that
me, Juno n Yann wanna leave the party,
bcz she thought that it was nt a respect action to the organizer...
so i try to ask my fren to stay with us in the event...

at last, we so happy n unbelievable that
we managed to get a champion!
Group 11, this is the 1st time i joined event that nt organized by myself...
n i get the champion! woohoo~
its a great memory with all of u dears...

i think that we can get the champion bcz of
the dedication made by Juno N Marcus, The MJ...
What dedication is that ? i think i better leave it 2 themselves.
They r so great n sporting! n also the games that we played together!
Cool man! At last, i heard that my frenz n members said:

"at least i did nt regret to stay here until the end of the event!"

Lets Look At The Picxxx~ ^^

During Making The Lantern

Say Cheese!

Sharing( Grabbing) The Hamper!

We R The Champion!

Different DECISIONS made different ENDING...

what u choose TODAY it bring to ur TOMORROW...
our life are full of DECISIONS...
what we have to do, is juz toTHINK n choose...
there is ntg bad if u choose wrong,
there still another CHANCE for u to choose again...

无助

早上，我以为我可以再开始冲刺，
怎么知道，队友们一个个好像抛下了我。。。
我感到很无助。有谁能来救救我？

一个胃痛，妹妹就从昨晚头痛到现在，
阿兰睡迟了，熊猫和Juno呢？
我很无助，今天自己一个人驾着车来到学院，
路途中，才发现一个个信息我，打电话给我，
这感觉很不好，
我想找人发泄，我想找人诉苦，
想找个电话联络大家，也很难。
突然发现好像全世界的人，都是陌生人，
我都不认识他们。

在我最需要你们的时候，
你们在哪里？
我很彷徨，不知道要做些什么？
有谁能来告诉我？