Hope

haiz...stop giving me a hope...
aft that, u all grab my hope away again...
until jz nw, i still believe that i have a chance...
bt since last second...i knw im the silly one...
im the one who still keep on runaway frm the truth...

i always asking u nt to be negative, i always encouraging u...
bt nw, i dunno hw 2 face u... who should i blame on?
no one... other did nt promise u at all...
they keep on saying: see 1st...
so, i have no right to blame on ppl...

yes, u r right...jz reject if dunwan...
y muz giving other a hope then grab it again?
i knw ltr if u knw the truth, u will get mad o cry maybe...
so sry... i should nt bring u together wv me to step on this journey...

if that day i did nt mention abt this,
maybe, we would nt unhappy today...
really sry...haiz...never trust on other start frm nw...
n never depend on other start frm nw...

n i found that actually, in my home...
i have no right to be sad...haha...
mom, pls stand on others' foot...
nt everyone have the same feeling o problem...
i might have my own problem too...
jz dad is unhappy n facing problem?
me too... bt why? i cant be moody?
i jz dunwan 2 smile, is that a problem?
it so ridiculous huh?

as higher the hope is,
the deeper the disappointing is...