原来

原来我真的可以把你放下，

原来我真的可以那么大方，

原来我真的可以为你祝福，

原来我真的可以为你快乐。

我从来没想过我可以就在那么一瞬间的转念，

就把你放下，也让自己有个解脱。

不能再爱你，但是还是可以当你是我朋友在喜欢你～

因为喜欢和爱是不一样的，

是两回事～

之前的那一段日子，我看见你的甜蜜，

我很不开心，我很想报复。

今天的一刹那，我问我自己：

我这样得到了什么？真的要失去你这朋友吗？

不要，所以我选择只把你当朋友，

也让自己好过些～

希望你在未来的日子里，真的可以找到属于自己真正的幸福吧！

至于我的朋友们，

有些失恋需要我关怀的，

有些功课需要我帮忙的，

有些暗恋需要我分享的，

有些心事需要我分担的，

现在我又回来啦！

你们可以找我啦！

我看见你们啦！

不会再把自己封锁了～

之前一段日子，你们需要我的时候，

我真的都知道，只是心情真的没办法稳定，

所以忽略了你们的事～

不过，现在不会再这样了！

I LOVE YOU

Since my last relationship, it was three years ago...
In these three years, I have crushed on LOTS of people...
and of course, all of them doesnt works...
all of these juz bcz of my own problem...

I dun have much patient on them...

All of them, I dun have the nerve to tell them I LOVE YOU...

Im nt scare of being rejected...

I scare to lose the frenship...

N maybe I juz dun have much self confidence...

I remembered there is once a relationship

that I always thought that we will get start...

bt what Im waiting for juz ntg...

I did not dare to tell him I love him...

Anyway, I still have him as frenz...

I never told the one I crushed now that I LOVE HIM...

I give up not bcz of he is nt treating me well,

I believe that he do not knw anything abt my feel...

juz me, the one who get in love easily...

maybe I have the sympathy on him at 1st...

bt I admit that aft that, I loved him...

I believe that he treat me juz as a normal fren, nt even a best frenz...

so cant blame him, its all my problem...

Im gave him up juz bcz I know that Im nt his style...

N he gt the one he love soon too...

so I trust him... he will get my regards so he will be happy always~

N now... This is the 1st time I express my feeling to him in my blog here...



I met you for long time ago, at the 1st sight,
I knw I want to be frenz with you,
bt did you knw hw I get all ur contact num
so that I can be fren with you? I never tells...
Bt that time when I knw you, thats the wrong timing...
So I wait for the right timing...


Everytime I saw you, I juz pretend like dont knw you,
and passed infront of you...
bt did you knw hw my feeling was? I never tells...
Once you get down, I cheers you... I hope you will get fine...
Scold you when you doing wrong...
bt did you knw what's the point of that? I never tells...


That day, I found that you are actually hiding me from the truth,
I pretend like ntg infront of you...
Maybe for you, all of them are juz ntg...
bt did you knw hw hurt am I? I never tells...

Maybe someday, Maybe when the day Im leaving,

I will tell all of my love that I LOVED THEM b4...

so i never regrets on them...

Anyway, at last... b4 I really gave you up...

I wish to say I LOVE YOU at here...

and we still end up bcz of the wrong timing...

I Love You,

24th Apr 2010.

20th Big Day

Unbelievable, I lived in this world for 20 years d...

16th apr 2010, I am now 20 yrs old!!!

I need to thx my mom n dad for bringing me here

and giving me a special sis for me too...

And here, I would like to say thx to all the frenz below:

Venuss Tan, Royblin Neoh, Juno Wai, Panda, Jeena, ViLean and Belinda Dada...

for giving me a unforgotten bday...

16th Apr 2010,

I went to college and in a rush time,

I met Chey Hui, Panda, Jeena, and Vilean,

they sit there for ntg, and I juz sit with them and discuss for a while,

and I left them...

As Belinda promised,

she planned and bring me to E-gate n treat me a lunch...

I appreciated it, dun worry that Im nt happy~

I happy with it, I satisfied with what u have done~

We did take some nice photo and have quality times...

Aft that, I rushed again 2 Gurney Redbox...

At there... here comes the CLIMAX!

When Im singing, The song cut and changed to Birthday Song!

A waiter sent in a birthday cake with weird shape...

I thought it was the bonus make by redbox,

Bt im wrong... There are our name on the cake!

The cake was make by Panda, Jeena, ViLean and Juno!

I really get shocked and do knw how to give respond...

Aft that I received call from Venuss,

I told her what happen here,

Bt Venuss said:" I knw ah!"

OMG... I really get the surprise this year!!!

Aft singing together at Redbox,

me, Ikumo, Venuss and Royblin went to watch Puppy Love Ice Kacang~

Its a nice movie for me~

Love It so much...
Thx frenz... I really love u all...

for giving me a happy day...

I would like to say words to each of u all:

Venuss

knw u since primary, bt get closer since Hcc... Really nt regret to knw u... Whenever I need someone, U r the one who always stand behind me n support me... especially when I have crush, U r the one who keep on listening to me patiently... never regrets to knw u my dear!

Muackzzz~

Royblin

get closer with u cz of Venuss, although u din nt treat me as well as Venuss( Jz Kd),

I still proud to have u as my frenz and senior who r willing to teach me lots of thing! Hope that one day, we can have a coorperation in movie! ^^

Thx guyz~

Juno

thx a lot A.B.I009~ u r a fren who always very caring and loving... Although u sometimes will keep on arguing with me, but I knw u r juz like to do so~ and when I met something unhappy, u will also sms me o directly call me to ask abt it although low in hp credit... thx dude! Muackzzz~

Panda

A gal who r always support me and cheer me up when im down, love u so much~

No matter what happen, u r the one who will msg me in fb to cheer me up~ also my best follower too in FB~ wakakaka! knwing u bcz of TF25, thats a fate i think~

Thx for the surprise!

Muackzzz~

Jeena

Mama~ thx for making a cake for us on our Big Big Day! I really get shocked when saw it... this was my very 1st time to have my emotional unstable on my Big Day! I never received such cake in the passing 19 yrs! Love You too~ Ur bai mu make u cute! so dun change~ Muackzzz~

Vilean

U r the coolest gal among all of them! by da way, sometimes ur words make me shock! And as I knw, the idea was thinking out by U!!! I love it so much! Learn something which is respondsibility from u... Thx and Thx once again for everything... Never regrets to knw u~ Muackzzz~

Belinda

Hey dude... I still remember on the day b4 my Big Day,

I met something down, although u r nt beside me, but ur msg asking me nt to cry and stay tough... cheers me up... show me ur care to me~ N i really glad to knw u...

We Get closer in this year, hope that we will be much more frenz in the future time~

and thx for the lunch that day~ I enjoyed it~ Thx~

Muackzzz~ ^^

Lastly, Happy Bday to myself and Frenship 4ever!!!

Surprise

Surprise... I think everyone do like it... especially girls...

girls will hope to get some surprise from their love one on the birthday...
By the way, Im a girl so I like surprise too...

But in the other hand, I dun like the feeling of

when i get to knw there is a surprise for me...
I'll keep on find out whats the surprise...
and I'll keep on imaginaring it...


So actually I like surprise and scare it too...
I juz found that there will be a surprise which given by my parents...
I was totally no idea what are they going to do on my 20th birthday...
but soon, I found that some clues which make me think that
they will present me SOMETHING...
and the SOMETHING probably will be a LAPTOP...
ermm... hope that Im correct~



But I scare that i'll get dissapointed...
by da way, if they are not present me LAPTOP,
I'll happy too... because I have a parent who love me so much~



Last week, one of my fren who juz knw me recently,
ask me am I going to celebrate the party?
Im nt sure with it...
and so she told me she juz free for 2 hours on that day,
she asked me that izit possible to celebrate with me on that particular hours...


I feel a lil bit shock because I dun think that
she will remember my birthday and celebrate with me...
She asked me where I want to celebrate?
I really dunno, actually I appreciate what my frenz do for me...
because these are all their willingness...

Besides, actually Im thinking of having a BBQ party,

and hence I asked her again,

she said she will only be free after 11pm...

I asked her that do you still want to join it?

she say yes, OMG... juz left 1 hours she still will attend...

Anyway,

Where they bring me to, What they present me,

When they celebrate wv me, How long the duration was,

I dun care actually...

juz the willingness I knw then will do...

So, by da way, just thanks to this frenz 1st...

although Im nt sure whether will she make it...

and thx all my frenz and family too, I love you all so much~

Hope that I will have an unforgettable 20th birthday with you all~

Calla Lily

Last night, I saw a pic frm my frenz,
he took it in Taiwan...
its having a huge piece of CALLA LILY as the background...

I really wish that I could have a chance one day,
I could stand in the middle of CALLA LILY FIELD with the person I love...

By the way, I think there is a lot of ppl
who may feel strange to the name of CALLA LILY...
CALLA LILY share other comman names too:
LILY of THE NILE, EASTER LILY, ALUM LILY...
it is in white color, for me, when I see it, it give me a feel of HAPPINESS...

CALLA LILY usually grow in spring, summer and autummn...

it's native to the southern of AFRICA in Lesotho...

I really like this flower, and its have a nice name in taiwan-海芋,

while in Hong Kong and China, the name changed to-马蹄兰/马蹄莲

If one day, when Im having my own wedding,

I wish that I will held it in the piece of CALLA LILY FIELD...

我的男友“们”？！

难道我这辈子就只能当照片里的配角？！

为何我会有这种说法？

因为我发现一旦我自己一人拍照的时候，

照片里的自己不怎么好看，即便好看，也不会引起共鸣！

然而，当和其他朋友拍照的时候，

就会好看得多！共鸣也多了！

但是主角依然是照片里的另一个人！并非我！！！

气死我了！难道我和任何男性朋友/TB朋友拍照，

他们都是我男友吗？！这是干嘛啊？！

我和他们拍照就那么容易让别人误会他们是我的男友吗？！

我再次澄清。。。我是单身！！！

不要再来问我我照片旁边的是谁？男友吗？

不是不是不是！统统都不是！全都是绝世好友！

不是我花心！不是我整天换男友！

竟然有人说：你怎么每次男友都好像换得很快啊？！

另一个则说：怎么你男友都不一样脸的？走最久是哪个？？？

WTF。。。去死吧！他们全都是我最好的朋友！

不要再问了！如果有天，真的是男友！

自然而然会在facebook上面大大声告诉你们！气死了！

以下几张照片，你们看看吧！

留言告诉我，真的那么像情侣吗？！

说实话哦。。。

编号一号：黄廷治。。。这张很正常吧？我不觉得有问题。。。

编号二号：Alan Choo 这张是嘴唇吧？可是还好吧？

编号三号：小小伦 这张真的很冤枉！！！试问哪有情侣这样拍的啊？！

编号四号：梅梅 这个搭肩就是情侣了！乱来！


编号五号：Juno Wai 我承认这张很像！但是只是角度问题！事实上一点都不靠近！


编号六号：Belinda Gan 这张最无辜。。。没什么肢体可言嘛！竟然还是被问！